Hope

Maybe it is my character. Hate to lose and hate to give up. Last month was just as bad as the previous months. We have asked 50% of our staff to go. Going to rent out one of my offices if possible. The rest of the staff who stayed will get a pay cut. This will reduce our monthly expense of SGD 50,000 a month to SGD 20,000 a month. We give ourselves 3 more months. If things still don't improve, then we will call it a day. Lesson learnt: Do not expand too quickly if the reserve is not strong. A very valuable and costly lesson. But I will remember it for life.

During this period, I tend to look back. Why I start this biz? If I didn't start it, I will still be holding on to my good pay job and I won't lose this big amount of our saving. If only, if only.... Regrets? to be honest, a little... but it only lasts a short while. Though it is super stressful, lots of problem, it is still something that I start from scratch and build it up. Though I still see no light, I knew my God will see me through this.

For a very long time, I never feel so helpless... but this is also the time that I draw closer to God. There is nothing else I can do to make my biz work. I have given my best. I am depending entirely on God now. I knew He will bless me. In Him, I shall not lack. In Him, is my hope.