Joy makes me feel guilty towards her...she asked me yesterday, "why mummy just sit there and watch TV? Why you can't be like Daddy play with me?" I always thought I did play with her wat...when? Eeerrr... till she mentioned it, I realised it has been a long time.
Guilty
Very guilty
But I am tired... I just want to sit on my sofa, watch TV and do nothing else. I have no more energy left after a day of hard work.
But Stanley can do it. Amazing... this man is amazing as his work is 10 times more stressful than mine. I think he also just want to laze around...but he forced himself to play with Joy. He loves her too much.
That is why I don't want to have any children in the first place. I am too lazy too self centred. ..absolutely no mother instinct...not suitable to be a mummy.
The guilt feeling is too strong. I off my TV and sit with her while she fixed a jigsaw... *yawn*..*YAWN*..*YAWN*.. stupid me...why did I buy a 80 pieces of jigsaw for a 4 years old kid? Becoz it is $1 ...hahaha... She is quite clever..she knows how to fix them. I am pleasantly surprised. The minute Stanley is out of the bathroom, I dashed in..."Daddy will play with you."....haha...
End of my misery. No more guilt.
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haha..... both sam & I are like that too! Poor zyon & rachel then... heehee....
Is this some traits of our family? hahaha.... But... our parents never play with us either, right?
Yeah hor..our parents also never play with us wat..haha.. I think we a bit gong gong last time. One toy can play v long. so need v little attention from our parents
That's precisely what I've thot abt last week! If my Darling has little time for me, then I'd home alone taking of baby whole day and he wont have any time for the baby & me!!! If play with baby, means no time for me. If have time for me, then no time for baby...Then have baby for what?? Hmm....
Well the more time you spend with them now is indirectly going to be equal to amount of time they will want to spend with you when you grow older.
That is why i will try my best to be there for Daisy and children in the future.
Maybe becos i was "fatherless" when i was younger... and now that i am fatherless again, it makes me even more determined.
I think to myself, sometimes time is just not to our advantage. Try your best.
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